Sleeping sickness.

It's like every month, someone who I still believe that I'm hung up on talks to me.
Should I be happy? or should I be mad?
I don't have a clue.
Of course I love my boyfriend with my whole heart but lately it's only been fight after fight and I'm getting sick of it. Sometimes I feel trapped and I can't do anything because when I do want to go out with someone else he gets mad at me. He gets mad at me over everything. Every little single thing. It's always my fault and I'm tried of getting yelled at. Isn't that why I left my dad?
Lately he just thinks that he can talk to me how ever he wants and expects me to be oky with it. But I'm not. Once I try and tell him my feelings he gets mad or doesn't seem to care.
It's scary how people can change over a short time period. He isn't the boy that I fell in love with anymore. As much as I would like to believe he is. He isn't.
Something has to change here, but how to you ask for change?
Living with your boyfriend isn't easy but, I always hope for the best.
Hope isn't dead yet, I don't think it ever will.

i love you.

I finally am in love.

for real. 4 months of happiness for the most part.