a seek for him and I.

Do I not belong with anyone?

Everything must belong somewhere .

Finding love is so hard when your heart isn't always in the right place.
My heart is confused.
Two lovely boys hold a small yet big place in my heart. Boy number one, oh the joy he brings to me. He likes me as well, but of course somethings always wrong. He doesn't want a relationship... great.
Boy number two, what a kid. He there for me a lot but problem with him is he hides his feelings.
I'm looking for love, not lust. I belong with someone, I just gotta find him.

Pure, like snow and gold.

So, as we all know, I'm still a young little girl who has a heart of gold.
I wouldn't want to hurt or break anyones heart ever,
sadly I think I might have to because of these strong feelings for another boy.
I am confused in my dark world that needs a little light, his light.
There is this boy,
Oh yes a boy again.
He makes my heart sing and makes me stop breathing.
I have been friends with him for a long time but really, he doesn't even see me.
Or will he ever like me, I am not those blonde skinny girls that he always seems to go for...
life, what a fuck up.
I hate it most of the time, I wish everything would just work out like I want it to.
But you and I know , that isn't going to happen.
He makes me really happy, but I really don't think I make him that way.
BOYS ! suck, well most of them.
Now this other boy,. he's ight. haha. ight.
He's super nice but I really don't think I see anything in him. I just need to make up my mind with a lot of things.
Like who I want, because I have list of boys that I would love to have in my life as a boyfriend.
Guys don't really seem to like me that much, it's always the creep ones that do.
I still love my ex. ugh. my ex what a fucker.
He isn't worth my time, so why cannot let go?
I need a new person to love me for who I am,
I need him.

faith in fools like you.

Listen fucker,
I don't fucking need you anymore. How dare you say shit to me? I was always there for you. Your not worth my time, you not worth anything.
Alone you shall be, happy I'll be. Maybe I'm a fool but I'll mean hell more to this world then you ever will. I always give second chances, but you'll be lucky to get one. Have a nice life, go fuck yourself 'cause lets face it no one wants to fuck you ♥ (:

The bottom of my heart is were you lay.

neon stars.

Neon stars are what I see when I look into your eyes.
I miss you, I really need to stop. you don't care about me so why should I care about you unless you do, unless you miss me.
I have so many left over feelings for you but I don't know what to do with them. Moving on just breaks my heart. Your still my everything with nothing to say, why don't you remember the times we shared?
We were so happy.
Love is in my future, with or without you.
I've grown a lot since you left, i'm not that sad, immature girl.

How lucky we were.

Do you remember all the good times and the bad times?
Do you remember when we used to cry? because all we thought about was how much we were going to miss eachother. Do you remember our first kiss? Do you remember our own little late night walks when we went to the park and talked just talked. Do you remember walking me home at the late hours of the night? Do you remember the south park movie? Do you remember the first time you told me you loved me? Do you remember how grateful we both were to have eachother? Do you remember the first time you held my hand? Do you remember our last kiss? Do you remember buying soy milk and anything else I wanted for me? Do you remember when you said I was your life? Do you remember when I cried about my life? Do you remember the time when I opened up my heart to you ? Do you remember acton? Do you remember those nights? Do you remember how you said you'll never break my heart? Do you remember when you said you wanted me for the rest of your life? Do you remember asking me out? Do you remember the "what would you do" questions? Do you remember my laugh? Do you remember when all you wanted was my hug? Do you remember never fighting? Do you remember me not caring that you smoked dope? Do you remember talking to me on the phone for five hours? Do you remember how you meant the world to me? Do you remember me? Do you remember our love? Do you?

you broke my heart, to bring this time, our love is fading but now you crossed the line. I miss you, yes I do. I just want you to remember what we had and what you let go of.

Immature losers.

I am done, with people and their foolish ways.
It's all immature.
How fucking dare you, write and say things like that about me?
You don't even know me like you think you do.
I have no respect or anything for you anymore.
You lost my friendship. Do you know how hurtful that was?
How I cried and screamed because you are a sick monster.
Never fucking cross me again.
I swear, I will never let you do that to me again.
Learn from your mistakes.
I always forgive but I never forget.

misery, won't get the best of me

"Yeah I'm moving on but that's the way it goes when you break my heart, everybody knows don't pull that shit again"

All is see in you is nothing.

I now see who you really are.

Two faced, and frankly I don't need that in my life.

You need to man up to the mistakes you've made and what you have done,

broken a little girls heart.

You have something to prove to me and nothing to lose.

I need an apology.

Yes, an actual apology.

This is really up to you,

stay in my life or say goodbye.

I've found some peace of mind.

I am still young and I do not know what I want

but I know what I need and having someone that only brings me down isn't it.

I losted a lot to you.

Indeed I did, but I will never regret.

I've had enough so you best fix it.

Your in a black hole of denial.

My world fell down in front of you and all you did was laugh.

Well, look who's laughing now.

You were my love, you were my life.

I still care but without you is something that I can do.

Breaking my heart, is what you did.

But I can break your heart too.

My eyes are wide open cause everythings been stolen.

Definition Of Destiny

Everytime I see you, My heart stops.
Your big blue eyes and bright smile lights up my world just for those seconds of being with you.
The way you just get so glad when you see me, is,
amazing.
I never know what to say to you because, I don't want to break how we are.
I don't want to mess everything up like I always do.
Just tell me, you like me.
Just tell me, you want me.
As you flip your brown hair, my world stops just to see your beauty.
You are beautiful to me, strange yet beautiful.

Good things come to those who wait...

I don't know,
I simply don't know.
I
am
a
mess.
All my emotions are all over the place,
I don't know who to love and care about.
Yes, I am still hung up on my old lover.
BLAH.
I wish I wasn't cause all he gives me is heartache and pain.
Why can't I see that?
Why can't my heart read that?
I've never felt so confused in my life
I don't know what's real anymore. The truth is what I need.
He needs to tell me the truth. Only the truth.
Not what I want to hear from his lips, what he feels from his heart.
Maybe it isn't great but it may help, yes it may help.
The words I speak to him are filled with love, lust, hurt and regret.
I regret so much. I regret losing him. I should of made him stay, but How can I make someone like him stay with someone like me?
He can do so much better, and I think he is.
I still cry about him, I still miss him so much.
but sadly he thinks so little of me, I've became a part of his past, the part that is forgotten.
I don't care about how much money he has, how many friends he has, what he does, what he wears, and what he knows.
I only care about him.
Who he is, The boy I fell in love with.
He was truly my first love.
but goodbye to that.