When will this feeling die?

I never seem to get over this one boy.
He always comes around at the best time and pulls me right back in,
And for what you may ask?
sex.
The one thing any boy would want from a girl.
I want a relationship, I want a boyfriend, I want to find love.
Why does it always seem to be so fucking hard for me?
I actually don't see anything wrong with me at all.
Maybe, I'm not the skinny, perfect teeth, blonde haired girl that every boy would die for but I am me, and I just want to find that one person that will like me for me.
Not because of what I look like, but who I clearly am.
I always seem to get my heart broken by some stupid boy who doesn't care about me at all.
They pretend like they do, but then really they just want me to go away after words.
I've always seemed to like more the one person at the same time so, there we go agian,
there's indeed another boy.
he is really such a great kid.
He's soo nice, it's crazy and he's so chill .
But, everyone has been dying to have him but I've been the only one killing for it.
We'll see where that goes.
goodbye for now, just let's hope it's all good in the end because I can't live like this anymore.