I've got 100 resolutions, but I've got no solutions.

Ahh, the new year.
It's time to say goodbye to 2009 and hello 2010.
I don't exactly know if I'm ready to left go of 2009,
it was pretty good to me besides the up and downs of the longest roller coaster of my life.
Even though I've had, heartbreaks, moments of regret, and emotional stress
I can always look back to so many times that I can called the highlight of my year.
For example summer'09 was the best summer so far, I fell in love with a boy.
Even though he did break my heart in the end, I still thank him for the time of my life.
I can't exactly say I have a "new year resolution" because I could name a thousand of them and I probably won't follow up on them.
So what's the point.
I rather say things that I would like to make happen in this new year of hopeful joy.
I would like to fall in love once again, with someone that will hold my heart and keep it forever.
I would like to do better in school, for I am a smart girl who just needs a push.
I would like to always hope for a better tomorrow.
I would like to not dwell on other's mistakes, for they should not affect me anymore.
I would like to be there for my family a bit more, my mother who needs me the most in her time of need, for she is dying of cancer.
I need to open my heart and mind to a new world that could most likely help me remember who I am,
remember who I love,
remember who my real friends are.
I've fucked up a lot this year, and I can only hope that everyone that I have hurt will forgive me, for I am ready for change.
My mind is the key to be all that I can be.
I have stuck with my favourite quote that will always be dear to my heart,
love acts on the hope of tomorrow.
I hope I can help so many souls with my stories in my blog,
I've been though a lot this year,
and this new year I will finally try to be happy again, as I was when I was young.
"Don't tell me to grow up, I'm just living while I'm young"
that's what I'll live by.