Pure, like snow and gold.

So, as we all know, I'm still a young little girl who has a heart of gold.
I wouldn't want to hurt or break anyones heart ever,
sadly I think I might have to because of these strong feelings for another boy.
I am confused in my dark world that needs a little light, his light.
There is this boy,
Oh yes a boy again.
He makes my heart sing and makes me stop breathing.
I have been friends with him for a long time but really, he doesn't even see me.
Or will he ever like me, I am not those blonde skinny girls that he always seems to go for...
life, what a fuck up.
I hate it most of the time, I wish everything would just work out like I want it to.
But you and I know , that isn't going to happen.
He makes me really happy, but I really don't think I make him that way.
BOYS ! suck, well most of them.
Now this other boy,. he's ight. haha. ight.
He's super nice but I really don't think I see anything in him. I just need to make up my mind with a lot of things.
Like who I want, because I have list of boys that I would love to have in my life as a boyfriend.
Guys don't really seem to like me that much, it's always the creep ones that do.
I still love my ex. ugh. my ex what a fucker.
He isn't worth my time, so why cannot let go?
I need a new person to love me for who I am,
I need him.