Good things come to those who wait...

I don't know,
I simply don't know.
I
am
a
mess.
All my emotions are all over the place,
I don't know who to love and care about.
Yes, I am still hung up on my old lover.
BLAH.
I wish I wasn't cause all he gives me is heartache and pain.
Why can't I see that?
Why can't my heart read that?
I've never felt so confused in my life
I don't know what's real anymore. The truth is what I need.
He needs to tell me the truth. Only the truth.
Not what I want to hear from his lips, what he feels from his heart.
Maybe it isn't great but it may help, yes it may help.
The words I speak to him are filled with love, lust, hurt and regret.
I regret so much. I regret losing him. I should of made him stay, but How can I make someone like him stay with someone like me?
He can do so much better, and I think he is.
I still cry about him, I still miss him so much.
but sadly he thinks so little of me, I've became a part of his past, the part that is forgotten.
I don't care about how much money he has, how many friends he has, what he does, what he wears, and what he knows.
I only care about him.
Who he is, The boy I fell in love with.
He was truly my first love.
but goodbye to that.