These days before you speak to me, you pause.

So much to say in so little time.
I am trying to change for someone that I love so dearly.
It's hard but I believe I can do it, no matter what.
He doesn't love me anymore.
Which breaks my heart to hear or say.
I don't understand, everything was going so good and now all of the sudden things change?
You don't wake up one morning and say to yourself, I'm not going to love this person anymore.
I really don't want to lose this boy.
He's done a lot for me and I have done things for him too.
I stick up for him, I love him, I try to make him the happiness guy in the world and I would do anything for him.
Why can't he see that anymore?
As I read the words that came from his mind in his blog, I see that he does love me and care.
I still kinda think he does.
I wish I could just talk to him and work everything out.
But he will come to me when the times right.
All I can do is hope for the best.
I think it will work out.
No, I don't think, I know. He is such a good hearted person, he would never break my heart.
I know there are somethings about me that you may not like but that's who you fell in love with.
Every annoying, dumb thing I do, is me.
I will try and stop since that's what you want.
but please know that I love you and I will stand by you if you need me.
I understand and care.
but I'm breaking down.
All I can say is that I fell in love with an amazing boy and I'd hate to lose.
I cry Frank.