Day Old Hate.

I wish I could come home from school and a loving mother ask "how was your day dear"?



Today, I wanted to write about my mother. I'm going to wash my hands of her. I don't want to deal with her bullshit anymore. I'm done. She has done so much to me, it's unbelieveable. What kind of mother picks drugs over her own poor, helpless kids ? Well that's my mom for you. I can't really put my finger on her. Everytime I see her or talk to her something new has come up and it's always bad. When I was younger I life was really bad, sometimes It's better now with my dad. My life was great in the beginning but then the fights started and my dad left her. Soon after she started dating again. She found a new boyfriend that she was with for many years. He is the person I think I hate the most in the world. He abused me and my mom. He was the on that got my mom into her hardcore drugs and he fucked up my life. He made my life a living hell. She stayed with him for reason unknowned. We moved around a lot. We didn't have a lot of money since all the money when to drugs. Before he came into my mom's life, she was a good hearted person that I loved. She would do anything for her childern, well not anymore. Soon after my father came into the picture by taking us from that hell hole. Right after that my mom got Bi-polar disorder and has had it ever since, then her "lovely" boyfriend left her. She now was alone and had no one. She kept going down the wrong path, still on hardcore drugs and now single so she needed money so next thing in line for her was to sell herself for money. She started going to jail a lot. She was just in there in April actually. Just to sum everything up, I don't love my mom, and I don't think I will again, she's a bad person that I don't fucking need in my life.