Colder than my heart, if you could imagine.

So I say goodbye, to a life of hell and complete bullshit.

Last night, was the last night that I put up with other fucking stupid immature people.

My dad's cunt girlfriend ripped my house apart. Glass everywhere and broken things. Learn to control your angry you bitccch.

What did we do to you?

Nothing, you just decided to fuck shit up cause you couldn't listen to you horrible music.

FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKED UP EVERYTHING FOR ME.

My father is now, poor and has to pay for everything that you broke.

Get over yourself and learn that your 35 not 15.

You can't do whatever the fuck you want, your a parent. Act that way.

THANK the lord your gone for the rest of my life, I will try to block you out of my life forever. Don't call me or pretend that you love me, because you don't.

Just leave us all alone. We don't want anything to do with you. But your kids are a different story. They are ALWAYS welcomed in my home.

The only thing that's going to bother me is, I have to lose my step brothers. I came so close to them, I actually called them my real brothers.

I'm sure they will still come around so, I don't think I have anything to worry about.

You better go to jail, you crazy fuck.

You are insane and soon you'll learn that no man has really loved you.

Don't you EVER dare to call me names or even bug me because I KNOW, I'm better than you.

I won't ever work at McDonald's. I won't ever hit my kids, I won't ever be like you.

Have fun being alone for the rest of your life, you did this to yourself.

may first, please don`t break me.

So, as most of the awesome people in the world know,

this saturday coming up is indeed the Marijuana march in toronto.

Fuck yes, I`m going with my best friends and a couple of other dirty dogs.

One of these dirty dogs is a boy who I used to have a big crush on. Now. I haven`t seen this boy in a long time and now he`s single (: finally, the day I have been waiting for.

Wait....... tooooo bad I have a boyfriend! who I so dearly love but has been scaring me off lately.

Don`t Cheat. Don`t Cheat. Don`t Cheat.

There`s no such thing as a get out of jail free card, (even though I wish there was).

The thing is, what is cheating? what actions fall under that?

I don`t even know, but what I do know is I can`t cheat.

Well, I just have to see where that day takes me.

Updates after saturday!

Fuck you? No, FUCK YOU.

So, I'm tired of fighting with my boyfriend and I'm tried of dealing with bullshit.

It was our 3 month yesterday which is a big deal for me because a boy has never stayed with me for more than a month, Anyways we didn't do anything so he made plans for us today. We we're going to go out to the local cute little ice cream shop downtown but OF COURSE, he had to fight with me.

No surprise. We always fight and I hate it. I'm done with someone making me feel like craaap.

Not happening. So, as he says fuck you to me, that's when I'm done. I absolutely hate it when someone says that to me. I walk away when he says this, I walk into my house and actually he didn't run after me...

Weird, 'cause that isn't the Joey I know.

So, Now I'm sitting here crying and writing this because some stupid boy made me feel like a total bitch for nothing.

Thanks for the awesome surprise. I really enjoyed it.

Oh is it love?

Lately, my ex boyfriend the one who everyone thinks is a loser, asshole has been coming up on my mind. A lot.

Even though I've moved on, fallen in love with my boyfriend. He still is always in the back of my mind. I guess you could say I miss him, but I rather you not.

I don't have feelings for him at all, but something is just there. I have not idea how to stop it or how to deal with it. It's been bugging me so fucking much.

All I wanted was for him to be out of my life, but every time he sees one of my friends he asks about me...

"how is she doing?"

"is she still with joey?"

"how's that going?"

Why doesn't he understand that he hurt me so much that I don't want to hear his name.

It just makes me sad and angry.

I'm done with the boy.

But these thoughts I can't get rid off and they give me the shakes.