The ups, downs and all around's.

I actually feel that I'm going insane, I've never felt so depressed in my life.
I just feel like ending everything but I know I'm way stronger then that.
I can never give up. I'm way better then everyone who brings me down. I am dying inside these walls I call a home. I can't handle having people telling me what to do or grounding me for the stupidest things I've ever heard. Everything is so twisted in this house. Someone twist-est everything around just to get me in shit. I never really realized how much people don't care about me. My own family doesn't even care that for the past week I have been crying myself to sleep or breaking down. I feel unstable to continue this life. But, I can't leave because of those few people who do care. Those few people who do anything for me. I just need to find that peace of mind that I'm looking for. Something to help me move on with my life and not dwell on fucking immature idiots in my house. Someday, I'm just going to leave everything behind and start out new. Block everyone that has made my life hell, never talk to them again or never see them again.
I'm done.
I am not where I belong.
I need help to survive.