Get Down With Your Bad Self

Lately, I cannot take people's bullshit.
There are so many stupid shit that bugs me to the point of crying myself to sleep.
Losing really close friends to assholes or even the fear of being played once again.
I've finally made up my mind on what boy I want.
Ah, there's just something about him that just makes me want him more and more each day.
He has a place in my heart, but then I don't know if I can put my faith into him,
I don't see him that much so who knows what's going on.
All I can do is hope for the best 'cause he does mean quite a lot to me, even if it doesn't seem like it or maybe he doesn't know but really he does.
Girls, the fucking immature nature of teenage girls just makes me wonder how I can survive high school everyday. There rude and mean comments about every single bitch that walks by isn't needed. What happen to peace and love?
So, since I've brought this up there is a girl that has been saying shit behind my back which isn't that much of a shock since I like her ex... but you know what? this girl doesn't even know one thing about me, I've maybe talked to her like twice? so, I hate people that judge people and don't really know them on the inside, just one look and they "can tell" that the person is a slut or a bitch. Fuck that shit.
I've made two great new friends whoI already trust, but one is falling in lust with the wrong guy. All he does is treat my other friend and I like total pieces of shit, and I ain't down. Makes me wonder if she is even a real friend sometimes, I love her like a sister but things need to change or I will fucking change them myself.
My dad is still being the same, like always he never does anything to help me or even fucking give me some money.
It's always about my other siblings and never me. But yet who does all the work around my house? me, not them, me.
It is completely non fair of him to act like he doesn't care about me and give the world to my brother and sister.
Mom.. yeah she's still a joke. In and out of rehab. Never seems to work really. She will never change for herself and my family.
So, I am simply done with her forever. I want nothing to do with her at all.
This blog was pretty much a venting blog about everything that has been going on, sorry haha, but I needed to get it out.