I'm losing touch.

As we all know, the against me! and alexisonfire concert is tomorrow and I can't wait.

But as always, something has to hold me back from going,

I have the tickets but I don't have the money to get there and back.

Also I have no money to get my t shirts either.

FUCK YOU DAD.

When he gave me my tickets on christmas, he said " I'll give you $50 when you go"

but now, since step bitch moved in he doesn't have "any money" which is a total lie

because he just got paid.

So, if I don't get that money then I'm fucked. I can't go.

wish me luck.

I'm still alive, Dad.

Lately, I've found that my father doesn't realize who his own kids are.

He acts like my step mom kids are his kids, and that my siblings and I are just roommates that live in his house.

He kicked us all out the other day, just my brother, my sister and I.

He said "call your sister and get the fuck out of my house, I'm done with you assholes" .

Uhm, can I say jerk?

He needs to learn that I know he's "in love" (he's not) with my step mom but like don't treat your own blood like shit just because you get in a fight with her or one of us does something wrong. That's pathetic.

He acts like he's two and he does nothing anymore. Sleep, eat, work, eat and sleep.

He doesn't clean, or cook or anything he used to do before she came along. I'm not going to lie, I miss his cooking. I hate my step moms food compared to his. He also, complains that we do nothing. When we all have jobs in our house that we're suppose to get ten dollars a week. I haven't gotten that ten dollars in three weeks, this week will be four. So, he owes me $40.

HARD TIMESSSS!

but. I'm a strong girl, I will get thought it with the help of my friends.

Anyways, Against me and Alexisonfire concert on Sunday. SUPER STOKED!

Seeing my love, Dallas Green and hearing the rad ass songs by Against me! will make my weekend.

All roads lead to hell...

Lately, I've run into immature fucks who need to learn a lesson.
Grow up,
Get over yourself,
Leave me alone,
And
Stop thinking your better than everyone else.

'cause your not.

happy st. patty's day to me...

well, what a crapy night.
First, I can't get drunk or anything caue I;m not going to a party because no one is having one.
Second, my step mom and dad got in a huge fight and now I have to sit here and hear about it from my dad, screaming and yelling at me, when this isn't my relationship or problem. So fuck off.
Third, all of my brothers and sisters left me here all alone to deal with this shit.
you many be thinking in your mind " well then go out idiot" but I can't since, I'm not allowed to go out unless I'm with my boyfriend because it's "dark" out.
Since my step mom moved in so many stupid ass rules have came too. Like all this is bullshit and things that my dad actually doesn't care about. All my freedom is gone.
On top of everything, I have no idea where my boyfriend is so that I can leave this house.
I'm sick of hearing other peoples problems and no one caring about mine.
People need to get over themselves and grow the fuck up.

3rd time isn't a charm.

If a relationship didn't work out the first, second, third, fourth time why would you think the fifth time would work?
it makes no sence,
when you complain about not finding the right girl or having a relationship that actually works out.
Just don't come crying to me,
old best friend.

fakers and heartbreaks.

So, I hate fakes, two-faced people, heartbreaks, and just plain liars.
People in this world need to grow up. They need to learn that jealously shouldn't get the best of them. I can't stand rumors. Right now in my life, rumors are going around my town about me how I "said" that I don't actually love my boyfriend, that I use him for sex and that I want my ex boyfriend back. Which is all complete bullshit.
Next subject is fakers.
I hate them the most out of all the people I've run into in my life. They all think they're something there not and try so hard to become a stereotype because they think it's cool. People need to be who they are and not something there not.
Subject number three-
oh, two-faced people? fuck off.
I live with so many people that are two-faced. I can't stand it. People in the world don't understand what honesty is anymore. It's insane.
Subject number four-
Ginooooo Faggot's.
Learn to listen to good music and stop acting like your better then everyone else. Just because you have more money, more girls/boys or more friends doesn't mean your better then anyone else. Get over yourself.

anyways, just had a hard week so far at home and school so, this is a little bit of a rant blog!

shower me with your light.